Saturday, May 13, 2006
dearrressttt diary,
i am, and always have been, a sucker for chickflicks. "Sweet Home Alabama" was a pretty sweet movie but i couldnt help but think of 'retreat from the global' - stupid stupid english extension. it also made me very foolishly think that true love exists. i think true love is wasteful because you never know what it feels like to think you really love someone else when really you dont. you can never really doubt yourself for long because in the end you know there was only one person you ever really loved. sure, it has its self denial but that one person has always been there.. no real surprises. but it is nice..nice to think at the end of the day, you will come home to someone you've known all your life..even if you wont be with them, it feels like home because you have somewhere you know you've always been able to fall back on. love is way too risky; it can complete you or it can shatter you.. mine is yet to blossom but i love seeing others in love (most of the time) oops off-tracked. oh yeah, it kinda reiterated the fact that i dont think i can ever like 'ahem' again. maybe its my unrealistic expectations but he doesnt cut it. sad, but im just too damn complicated. anyways, can't wait for "Love Actually" on sunday =]
In case i only vaguely skim the memory of the past two days, i'll just note that thursday and friday was the BEST. thurs with bio excursion & friday with my lastest excursion, being the legal conference. spent it with amanda and hazel, the lamest ppl in the group and it was the funnest day ive had in yonks despite the irony of being in a lecture hall for the majority of the day, listening to half hour lectures, with our stomachs growling from time to time. being stuck between amanda and hazel is the worst place to be if you wanna learn something from these professional judges. it was impossible to sit there without wanting to burst out laughing, for no reason for a lot of the times. i literally had to laugh in silence; thought that if i didn't crack anytime soon, surely i would just fart or something because the pressure of keeping the laughter inside was reaching the higher than the highest level possible. the 3 of us are the worst 'serious' company for each other. but needless to say, we had a really fantastic day, or i did at least; amanda slept in every lecture and i think the family law judge saw her because he said "for those who are still awake..." LOL busted. we even sat like hobos outside while waiting in btwn lectures, eating cookies. it was so funny when we (hazel, amanda & i) all thought what weirdly tasted c ookies we were eating - they were passionfruit flavour.. n they were sour =/ OH, i thought i should also note that despite it being the oldest parliament house in the country, i think, the girls' toilets are DISGUSTING. well, they were clean enough but all 3 toilets in there had no toilet tissue!! lucky i had clean tissue of my own in my pocket.. but omg SHAME. tsk tsk. but yeah, the day was so awesome. thursday aka uni day was nearly as awesome. UNI IS AWESOME. iono, it just looks like the place i really wanna be next year. the life and the people are just so.. cool. maybe 'cool' isnt the right word for the many many nerds i saw but it just felt really cool to be there. such a big gap between a uni student and a high school student yet in less than a year i will go from yr12 to yr1 uni, considering i make it, which i pessimistically think i wont. sad really, its somewhere i really wanna go. i feel way too out of place though. anyways, the museum was pretty cool, didn't tickle my fancy too much because im not exactly a medicalish person. i was SO fascinated by the mini physics demo lecture we had before it though. that guy was soooo cool, i hope i get a lecturer like him, and not an assistant like his - so useless, cept for turning off the lights LOL. i forgot to mention the 15min talk or so on the fone with jimmy.. which was hilarious and so 'cool'.
2 days off school.. absolute sweetness. loved every moment of it, even if i had to wake up at 6 something on friday.. gg. well, 15mins till FA cup final and i still have HEAPS of hw to do and i still have to sacrifice tomorrow night because i wanna watch "Love Actually" soo, i will finish. i just really had to note how cool thursday n fridays excursions were sooo fun. and so sweet of kevin to wait for me on friday arvo; grr woke me up just when i was getting comfortable and nearly fallling asleep. awww, i realised not being at school makes me incredibly headache-free and i like it like that =]
haha to think life is really that easy.. so naive..
