Saturday, February 25, 2006
so i think i've abandoned this place long enough. i still dont have much to say. i dont think i have much to say at all. except, i would like a background with nice polka dots. they look so funky.
everything is so gay these days. and people just have to make it worse by saying gay things. why cant things just be straight up around here. they seem to have such gay feelings about gay subjects that don't mean a gay shit at all. then others like to make gay judgements about .. people which i find highly rude and well.. gay.
some people are just purely gay.
hmmm, i find myself being so cynical lately. i have a problem with everyone. i used to not give a shit. i used to be able to get pissed in the moment and then forget it by the next. now, i get so worked up about it; i think i'm offended by things that are usually not. and i'm angrier at people for far longer than i usually would. it's an ugly person to be but it seems to be growing rather than dissolving. somehow, i just expect this world to be perfect in its imperfect ways. its a horrible place to be to have such strong negative views on people and what they say, yet its a place thats slowly turning into my home. i must revert back to old self.
i would really like the opportunity to do this blog over, though the opportunity most likely would not show until the days of this term is over. 6 goddamn weeks. it's going down fast and im about to kill myself trying to stay alive (??)
i am officially sick, i think. and i have such a headache. why it happens just a couple of days before my modern history assessment, i'm not too sure. but it is most undoubtedly, gay. i hope i get better soon. i really want to do okay in this. gayly enough, i dont see it happening. oh, the disappointment that dawns on me. so gay.
must continue to study and finish homework; but maths just wasted an entire day of mine and i still didnt finish it because i dont freakn know whats going on with all this simpsons and trapeziums. my maths teacher is soooo gay. and short. but mostly gay.
later days; @459pm
sunset kisses ;
