Monday, May 07, 2007
I would like to see some change. Some sort of change where it would just completely overwhelm me. The same drama, which isn't even real drama, is becoming tedious - in fact, it's like the old stuff but with an extension, an upgrade i.e. into UNI. I guess I am glad I made it in in the first place. I don't know what I would be like if I hadn't. I got in through my worst enemy, a dumb Access Scheme. I didn't think I needed it.. well I wasn't exactly needing any shoulder to cry on every 5 seconds. I am capable of dealing with things.. may not be the best way but it doesn't mean I needed that. Yet, besides all that, I still find that the very Uni Student space that I currently occupy is as a result of that. It's kinda shameful in a way and in a bigger way it feels like such a disappointment to my own ability. You know, I have yet to shine? 18 years and I have yet to prove myself. I know you think well why don't you start? You've been given a second chance, why are you still acting like a lazy shit? Well, in my own defence, noone has taught me how to change. I know it's all about being smarter, being more studious and all that shit.. but if they were the best ways to get myself on top, do you think i am that stupid to not ever hear of these words in the past? You must think i am the biggest dumbfuck in the world and for your information, I'm not. So don't assume that I have all the answers. Because I don't. And I don't intend to pick them straight from my arse either. Please, please, please, may you let me transfer next year. PLEASE. May you let me do a course I want. May you let me have some grades I can be proud of. I am trying. If you knew just how much you wouldn't look down on me so much. I'm sorry I'm such a letdown but I promise to find a D at least somewhere in this course. Well, I have but I barely did anything in that so it doesnt count. Anyway, I just had to add this blog looks like shit and I wish I had the time like other lovely people to do something about it, i.e. ask someone to help me lol. Well, time for Relationships reading & writing, and Psychology assignment. xoxo
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Monday, November 06, 2006
WELL SINCE THIS BLOG HAS BEEN ABANDONED BY MY CJ QWEEN I DECIDED TO BLOG FOR HER =]
hehe well .. CONGRATS TO RACHELE FOR FINISHING HER HSC !! JUST WAIT !! WE'RE LAGGING BEHIND BUT WE'LL GET THERE SOON HHHE AND UMMM
SALLAI - UR JUST SO AWESOME
JEN - I FINKS U NEED MORE BP HEHHE
AND MAN IM WASTING MY LEGAL TIME ! HEHEHE
BYEEEE
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Sunday, October 29, 2006
BITCH!! >=[
I hate hate hate hate hate the hsccc. And MATHS, you can take a HIKE coz noone wants you here. Get the hell outta my faaaaace. EUGH. You know what my problem with you, MR HSC, is? You bring me down too much! You take every inch of me and everytime i'm trying to normal, you fucken snatch it and gnarl your way through it so it can never exist again. You're always trying to kill my confidence and you're always trying to make me feel like shit! Make no mistake here punk, YOU ARE A FKN BITCH. You give me the shittest timetable in the world [i know others have it worse or the same] and on behalf of them, i have to ask, why do you have to be so uptight? leave us, and on a more personal level, ME alooonnnne. *CRIES. I really really hate this. I think it's only coming to me now that my exams are about to start.. yes.. while everyones done at least one after english, i've yet to begin any. and when they come.. aw man.. do they come in like a whole a bunch. thank the lord for the BOS. they do wonders for us sometimes. bitch.. Meh. done. EY MATHS! come here bitch, i take you on now! you and me on the table [LOOOL] with the calculator.. see if u can outlast me today&tonight. FKN SIGH, look what the hsc does to me. makes me talk to MATHS in FIRST PERSON.. aw mannnn.. i can't wait till its over. but it aint over till the faaaaaaat lady sings hehe that bos lady =P
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Saturday, October 28, 2006
HALLOO =)
LOL! sally reads my blog.. aww poor girl..im hardly ever here. i cant be bothered blogging these days coz im too busy being a sad sad nut reading other ppl's blogs. and not jsut ppl at school and stuff.. the yr11cows. god, them and their lemon detox's and this is what happend in the every second of my life. i MUST blog abt it because every waking second that ticks by is so SPECIAL to me. my life is so exciting because i get out of bed in the morning, just like everyone else. ABUH. well, it's fun reading them and laughing at them. if their lives are so full of it, how do they have time to blog so much abt that shit.. and in that much detail..must be just me, since i have such bad memory its impossible for me to do that LOL. ahh so the time has come, the fucken hsc. its come knock knock knockin and deeep inside..deep under my intestines and whatnot, i am so fucken scared. my time table looks exactly like ne other exam period at school and ive nevr done well in crammed timetables. SIGH. i just hope hope i get into uni so i can do whati wanna do. so maths is monday so im gonna do maths like ive never done it before; most of the time its like that coz im so lost lol. well yeah, i cant wait till after hsc.. have so much to do, so many people to catch up with. i hope i can get a job. if its in cab, wow wat a joy.. so close to home. so good for lazy people like me lol. AND, was thinking of taking up KNITTING. hahhaa.. it jsut seems fun and i wanna knit a little sock for someone as a token of my LURVE lmao. anyways, i shall come back another random day since this blog still exists and i remember my username and pw =)
later dayyyss
___ jen ` xoxo
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Tuesday, August 08, 2006
this place has been abandoned to the max.
helloo btw =)
i'm in the middle of trials. =O its meant to crazily hectic and brainbashing with cramming but surprisingly it has not knocked me off my pedestal yet. i'm still alright. fucked up oh what.. nearly all of my exams? i just have to work my bloody arse off for the next couple of months to get a decent uai to drag my ass to uni. i know, it isnt the end of the world if you dont make but, i do. so screw that thought. meh..i can't beleive the types of things i did to screw up my exam.. i did the wrong question for english.. when they gave us 3options to choose from the day before the day before! its stupid to take a hard way out, under PRESSURE i might add, to do a question that you did not prepare for at all. sooo dumb. i swear those replacement questions and shit are a bitch. especially maths, which i had yesterday.. i probably failed again. not a word youre meant to use for exams but yeahh.. i figured out a few questions on my own though!! that's the only thing i'm proud of. so proud that it seems to outweigh the fact that i probably failed the whole thing..which is bad since its worth 40%. i was pretty spastic talking to kevin on the way home haha that guy's been so good to me the past 2 months, it's greaatttt. =) hmm, modernhistory, that exam i wanted to break the 60% barrier i think..has not been achieved LOL. so upsettinggg.. i ran out of time. fuck, 3hrs for 3 topics.. and we havent even finished pacific in the conflict yet. GOD, the content is just CRAZZZYYY but i will miss that class. it's been a really good class to me and ive beeen so lucky to have the maddest teacher.
and yeaahhh.. i don't wana turn this blog into a loonggg detailed story of each exam. short&sweet; i screwed them up. but since i dropped english extension, yay, i can use it to studyy or do something productive. i would really like to go home but i guess staying back at school so i can spend time with certain people wouldn't be too bad either. only 5weeks of school left roundabts and i'll need all the time for friends as well as study sooo yeah =) anyways, i think i'll go back to doing bio & then speech a little later on. no wasting time today. at all. SHUTUP.
byebye jennifer, since youre the only who reads this =)
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oh, and the title is cool because it rhymes. yay.
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